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Here’s a cleaned-up version with grammar, punctuation, and flow corrected while keeping Lori’s voice and meaning intact:

I woke up Sunday morning and didn’t want to go to church. In fact, the week before, I stayed home and fell asleep halfway through praise and worship. I didn’t rewatch it to write a reflection, and I hid from everyone who might ask me about it.

Yesterday, I threw on some clothes and showed up anyway. Jared reminded me, “Move a muscle, change a thought.” He also said to dress how I want to feel. Thank God for him.

I spilled it all to Dani as soon as I walked through the doors, and she said, “Oh boy, you’re in for a treat today.” And boy, was she right. God really knows what we need when we need it.

Saturday, I did my 3rd Step with my sponsor. “Step 3: We made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.”

The character defects I identified throughout this step work session were fear, anxiety, lack of faith, isolation, and not turning things over to God. I give it away and take it back… over and over. I am so tired. Powerless.

I’ve been putting my trust elsewhere and avoiding God’s people. Isolating at home. Not answering the phone or texts. It seems easiest at the time, but honestly, it has separated me from God. Life only gets harder and lonelier this way.

I sent a message to Pastor Joe this morning saying that I didn’t want to write reflections anymore, telling him everything above and that it stresses me out because I overthink it. He said, “This is perfect.” I wrote it and didn’t even know it lol.

Anyway, I know what I need to do. I also need to quit complicating things.

I have a problem. Turn it over. Use my support network (God’s people). Move a muscle, change a thought. Show up even when I don’t want to. Dress how I want to feel.

Today has been a great day!