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Today’s message began with the kids in church. Pastor Keith was wearing a Tampa Bay Lightning jersey, talking about team loyalty. It made me smile and reminded me of the kids’ birthday party we went to last weekend. It was NFL-themed, and all of us adults wore jerseys to show which team we belong to.

Jesus says, “Take up your cross and follow Me.” Not the Miami Dolphins . They lose often, but Christ never loses.

Do I negotiate my loyalty with God when life becomes unmanageable? When things are calm, trust feels easier. But when seizures come, when my body feels unsafe, when my children are distant and still using while I walk in recovery — do I stay loyal then? Or do I start bargaining?

I was reminded today that allegiance comes before the fallout. My covenant with God must matter more than illnesses. More than fears. More than the outcomes.

During the sermon, I found myself thinking about the places where I struggle to trust God’s timing:
— Epilepsy, seizures, and an upcoming brain surgery.
— My children, whom I love deeply but cannot control.
— The ache of being misunderstood while choosing recovery. While choosing Christ.

His promises are perfect, and He is loyal to the redeemed. I am redeemed.

I am called to trust God’s promises and the plan He has for my life — not necessarily healing or even life itself. Even if it costs everything. I am learning that God can use even what I consider “bad” for good. My suffering is never wasted.

Deny myself. Surrender. Take up my cross and follow Him… NMW! (No matter what.)

Should I be afraid? Probably yes. I’m human, imperfect, living in an imperfect world. But thank God I can recommit every single day. Pray. Worship. Show up. Trust. Have faith. Hold on to hope.

Jesus, I am Yours.
I trust You, and You alone. Hallelujah.

I am Team Jesus!