Forgiveness

Today was a little different at Gracelife. Pastor Keith read a powerful letter from Paul to Philemon. I had never heard this book before and it struck me deeply.

I struggle deeply with anger. It is something I am very aware of having lost many friendships and relationships with my words and actions. Being angry just feels so much better than being hurt. Today I was reminded I need neither hurt nor anger. Today I was shown a beautiful example of why to forgive. And the person I need most to forgive is myself.

I was never asked of my worthiness because I am not worthy. I was never asked what I deserved, because if I got what I deserved I would not be writing these words this afternoon. I was not asked anything. I was shown grace. Mercy. I was forgiven. I was chosen. Not because I am good but because He is! Thank you Pastor Keith for showing me part of the word I have never seen before. Thank you for reminding me of what I have been given, and what we all really need. Forgiveness.